this is one of those things that i HAVE to write about but don't really wanna.
This morning, I went to my doctor's appointment, not sure what I was going to see, but sure i was going to see something.
What greeted me was an empty uterus.
I started crying. The doc sent me to their other office with a better machine.
My uterus is still empty. But more ominous is that they THINK I MIGHT have another ectopic. They found something in my left tube.
so, the doctor explained to me that there are several things that can happen at this point. There could still be a viable pregnancy that is too small to detect...and the only way to find out is to take a blood test and check my hcg level.
Once they get my initial level, there will be several other outcomes.
1.) if today's was normal (which it was), I will have to go back on Thursday and have another test done so they can compare the numbers. In a normal pregnancy, the hcg level should double in 48 hours.
2.) if my hcg levels drop, or rise abnormally, I will have to either have surgery, or take a shot that will result in a chemical abortion.
3.) my tube could rupture before then, in which case, while they are trying to put me back together, they can all take comfort in that they were right.
So...more waiting.
*sigh*
This is when I wish I could really internalize the idea my pastor was trying to convey about spirituality and surfing...and how sometimes, you have to wait for hours to catch the perfect way.
I hate waiting.
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